VULNERABILITY CASTRATION PSYCHE EDGES OF 'COOL FIRE' AFFECTS

'ROBERT FROST------------'THE BEST WAY OUT IS ALWAYS THROUGH'                 /////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

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'IN AND OF ITSELF'...TO INCORPORATE THE STRESS AND STRAIN...REASLITY OF A PAINFUL AND ALARMING EVENT...IMMEDIACY OF PAIN, CONFUSION, UPSET...LACK OF LONG TERM PERSPECTIVE...PROTECTION, WALLINGS, BLOCKS, DENIALS....BARBICAN IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT AND HUNGRY GHOST ADDICTION MEDIATIONS...PTSD...REEXPERIENCES...TRIGGERINGS-SERIOUS THREAT TO ONE'S LIFE, PHYSICAL INTEGRITY...ENCOUNTERS IN COMPLEX LAYERINGS AS 'SHAME FORTRESS POWER CONTROLZ' ARE ACTIVATED....PUSHING BUTTONS...AN INTENSITY AS CIRCUMSTANCES, SITUATIONS, ACTIVITIES THAT ARE SIMILAR TO THE ORIGINAL TRAUMA REOCCUR...

INTENSE DISTRESS OF HYPERVIGILANCE IN RELIVING EXPECTANCY ...FEELINGS OF NOT GOOD ENOUGH, POWERLESSNESS, LACK, HELPLESSNESS SURFACE...VANITY FEARS IN EMOTIONAL ANAESTHESIA, PSYCHIC NUMBING ARE MORE EXPOSED....

TO KNOW THE CARLOS CASTENEDA SENSE OF THE SORCEROR’S ‘CONTROLLED FOLLY’…TO ‘KNOW THAT OUR ACTS ARE USELESS AND YET WE MUST PROCEED AS IF WE DIDN’T KNOW IT’…TO KNOW ‘SELF IMPORTANCE’ AND ‘UNIMPORTANCE’…THE EQUALITY OF MATTER YET THE BELIEF IN THE POTENCY OF THE SPIRIT…THE EQUILIBRIUM OF THINGS…TO SEE THE ‘LUMINOUS BEINGS COMPOSED OF FIBERS OF LIGHT’…A SET OF LONG FIBERS THAT COME OUT OF THE NAVEL AREA…THE ‘SOURCE OF UTTER MOST BALANCE AND EQUILIBRIUM’…TO LEARN TO BALANCE AND MOVE WITH PRECISION…CARLOS CASTENEDA-A SEPARATE REALITY

.........‘TO LIKE WHAT ONE IS AND DOES…TO REALIZE DEPTHS OF KNOWING AS ‘CHARACTER COMPASSION’…IT IS NOT EMPTINESS, IT IS VASTNESS OF THE MAN OF KNOWLEDGE’…THE TUNINGS AND TONINGS OF BEING…TO SURVIVE IN THE WORLD ONE MUST BE AS FAST AS LIGHTNING’…‘THERE IS NO TIME FOR RETREATS OR REGRETS AS ONE MOVES AS A WARRIOR…IT IS ‘WILL’AS POWER TO SUCCEED WHEN ONE’S THOUGHTS TELL ONE THAT ONE IS DEFEATED’…EVERY BIT OF KNOWLEDGE THAT BECOMES POWER HAS DEATH AS ITS CENTRAL FORCE…DEATH LENDS THE ULTIMATE TOUCH AND WHATEVER IS TOUCHED BY DEATH INDEED BECOMES POWER’… THE WAY OF DETACHMENT IS THE AWARENESS OF THE THREAT OF ANNIHILATION- ‘BEING HIT BY LIGHTNING’…THE IDEA OF IMMINENT DEATH, INSTEAD OF BECOMING AN OBSESSION OR A DEBILITATING INDULENCE, BECOMES ‘INDIFFERENCE’…THE IDEA OF DEATH MAKES MAN DETACHED SO THAT HE CANNOT DENY HIMSELF ANYTHING…A SILENT LUST FOR LIFE-NOT A CRAVING…HE KNOWS DEATH IS STALKING HIM AND WON’T GIVE HIM TIME TO CLING TO ANYTHING…HE MUST BE THE MASTER OF HIS CHOICES…NO TIME FOR REGRETS OR RECRIMINATIONS…PATIENCE ON THE PATHING OF WILL…TO KNOW HOW TO WAIT…TO HAVE DEATH ADVISING CHOICES…THE MYSTERIOUS WAYSTHAT LEAD TO ACHIEVING SOMETHING ORDINARILY QUITE IMPOSSIBLE TO ACCOMPLISH…‘A SORT OF POWER EMERGES OUT OF HIS BODY’…AN ITCHING ON THE BELLY, ON A WARM SPOT THAT CANNOT BE SOOTHED; THEN IT BECOMES A PAIN, A GREAT DISCOMFORT…CONVULSIONS AND PAIN FOR ‘MONTHS’…THE MORE SEVERE THE CONVULSIONS THE BETTER FOR HIM…A FINE POWER IS ALWAYS HERALDED BY GREAT PAIN…CARLOS CASTENEDA-A SEPARATE REALITY