MOISTURES OF DIFFERENCES: MOTHER MIRROR...THE IMMERSIVENESS OF EXPERIENCE

'AS FLIES TO WANTON BOYS ARE WE TO THE GODS...

THEY KILL US FOR THEIR SPORT' SHAKESPEARE-KING LEAR

AVATAR MEDIUM SAVANT SURROGATE STATES OF ENERGY FLOWS...MERIDIAN POINTS OF LIGHT ELECTRICAL STREAMS IN ACOUSTICAL RESONANCE...VIBRATORY ECHOIC TIMBRE AS 'UNHEARD' YET SENSED OR FELT...

CONSCIOUSNESS IN EROS ACTIVATIONS OF ALIVENESS IN PATTERNINGS OR OPPORTUNITY OF REDIRECTIONS...

TENDENCIES IN WAYS INTO PERFORMANCE OR GROWTH...

IT IS THE COLLISIONISM AFFECTS OF SUSTAINING THE IMAGERY OF 'TIDY' REALITY IN THE STORMS OF COLLECTIVE ANGST AND DELUSIONS OF DESIRE...IT IS THE MEDIATION OF THE MATERNAL IN THE SPIRIT OF SELF STRIVING TO PROVE AND ESTABLISH A POWER PRESENCE TO COUNTER THE EMPTINESS...IT IS THE COMPRESSION FORTRESSING OF SAVANTING INTO AVATAR OR MEDIUM OR PATTERN ROLE THAT ANAESTHETIZES AGAINST THE SURFACINGS OF REAL FEELINGS...THE CORRIDORING, CHANNELLINGS OF IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT...IT IS A STORM IN THE BRAIN DIFFERENT FROM A CREATIVITY BRAINSTORM OF VISION AND FOCUS...

MOISTURES OF DIFFERENCES IS PROCESS OF PSYCHE ALCHEMY IN BIO-CHEMISTRY...

TRANCEROS AWARENESS AMIDST DRIVINGS INTO 'SHAMAN' INITIATIONS RECURRENCE AS THE ORIGINAL VULNERABILITIES AND SENSES OF POWERLESSNESS AND BEING OVERWHELMED ARE REACTIVATED...AS ONE LACKS RESOURCES AND STRENGTH TO WITHSTAND THE SENSORY OVERLOADS AND THE 'DEATH' OF THE EGO PERSONALITY...

THE JOURNEY OF GROWINGNESS BECOMES THE GREATLY ENHANCED NEW WAY OF DISCIPLINE TO CONCENTRATE IN PURPOSEFUL ACTIONS OF INTEGRITY BY BEING ABLE TO REDUCE INFLUENCES OF WHAT IS ALL AROUND...

IT IS FOCUSING AS 'SAVANT' TENDENCY IN ACTIONS YET BEING CONSCIOUS OF 'AS IS' PRESENCE...

IT IS KNOWING THAT EVERYTHING OR 'EVERY THING' IS A NARRATIVE, ESPECIALLY IN THE NEON EMOTIONAL DESERT OF CREATIVE PERFORMERS IN 'COOL FIRE' ACOUSTICAL BLINDNESS' INTO SAVANT OR MEDIUM OR AVATAR PATHINGS IN MERIDIAN POINTS OF LIGHT ENERGY 'CIRCUITS' [OF CIRCUS SIR CUSS SINGS]...THE MUZAK OF THE DRAMAS OF NO ONE IS LOVED ENOUGH IN A SPLITTING REALM OF HYPERSEXUALIZED PERFORMERS OF REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE WAYS FUNCTIONING IN ENDURANCES OF 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' MEDIATION THEATERS...

IT IS SEEING INTO THE ARENA OF TALENTS, PERFORMERS, SKILLS OF CELEBRITY AND ACTOR, ATHLETE AND TALKING SMITHS...THE EXCESSES OF 'TOO MUCH' BEING CHANNELLED INTO TO NARROW OF A PATTERN...

IT IS SAVANT ZONING AS 'TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING' BECOMES 'ROBBING PETER TO PAY PAUL' AND LOSS OF ORGANIC FUNCTION IN THE IMBALANCES OF LEVERAGINGS INSTEAD OF TRUTH OF URGENCY AND INNER NECESSITY...

MOTHER MIRROR

A MOMENT OF PSYCHE BIOGRAPHY ENCOUNTER...

'A FLASH OF INSIGHT IN A REFLECTION...THE FACE OF MY MOTHER IN AN OPPOSITE...A PARALLELISM YET AN ENERGY OF ATTRACTION AS BROWS, CHIN, LIPS, EYES, NOSE , DISPLAY SOMETHING UNIMAGINED...SOMETHING OF A WOMAN OF COMPLEX PSYCHE STATES ENMESHED IN BELIEFS AND TENETS OF INERTIA'...

AWARENESS....TRANSITION...

A MOMENT OF AFFECT AS 'SHE' LEFT 'WITHIN ME' AND TEMPORARILY 'FORMED' IN A ZONE 'ACROSS' FROM ME...IT OCCURRED IN A PSYCHE RELEASE...A VISUAL ECHO RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES...SHE WAS IN MY PRESENCE NOT AS A 'PROJECTION' BUT AN 'ENERGY INTERSECTION'...I COULD SEE HER ANGST IN A 'CERTAINTY OF BELIEF' IN A 'FAITH MEDIATION' OF 'TREASURED LOSS'...THE WOUNDS AND RAGES OF HAVING BEEN 'WRONGED'...SOMETHING IN MY VISION ALTERED AS I SAW MY MOTHER IN A MOTHER MIRROR.

IT WAS IN A GUILTINESS MOMENT THAT WAS 'OUT OF BALANCE'... A STREAMING IN 'EMOTIONALITY TIMBRE' OF THE 'LOST CHILD' THAT DID NOT SURVIVE BEYOND A BRIEF BREATH OF SPRING...THE 'CHILD' THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN...THE 'CHILD' OF 'SHOCK' THAT DID NOT SURVIVE...THE CHILD THAT NEVER REALIZED HUMAN...THE 'CHILD' THAT BECAME AN 'INVISIBLE FORCE' THAT 'NO ONE' COULD BIRTH OUT OF THE 'NOTHINGNESS'...THE 'INVISIBLE CHILD' FILLING THE ABSENCE...THE EMPTINESS...THE INVISIBLE CHILD OF BURDEN...THE INVISIBLE FORCE IN 'OWNERSHIP' OF HER INNER RIVER OF SORROW...FOR NO ONE COULD SHARE THE SORROW OF THIS 'LOSS'...

THE SEEING INTO THE 'MOTHER MIRROR'...SEEING THE AFFECTS OF THE DEPTHS OF 'POWERLESSNESS' TO COUNTER THE 'SHAME' AND 'GUILT' OF 'NOT BEING WORTH IT' OR 'NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH'...FOR SHE SEEMED 'HEART DISHEARTENED' IN HAVING DONE EVERYTHING IN ACCORD WITH EXPECTANCY AND STILL THE DARKNESS AND DEADNESS OF HER DEPTHS DEFINED...

THE COMPENSATORY JOURNEY...THE READJUSTMENTS AND RECRYSTALLIZATIONS TO COUNTER THE EXPECTANCY OF NOT GOOD ENOUGH AND IMPERFECT STATES...A SEEKING OUT OF 'WINNING A PRIZE' WITHOUT REALIZING THAT THE GAME WAS DIFFERENT FROM WHAT SHE HAD ORGANIZED HERSELF FOR...

IT WAS A BETRAYAL OF SELF AS THE SHOCK DROVE HER TO FLIGHT IN THE VANISHING AWAY FROM ALL THAT HAD BEEN CONSTRUCTED...A PHOENIX BIRD RISING OUT OF THE ASHES DRAMA-HOPE THAT A RECONSTITUTION WOULD FACILITATE A COURSE BEYOND THE OLD ORDERING RUNNING ITS COURSE.

FOR THE 'LOST CHILD' THAT IS HER CREATIVE WITHDRAWAL FROM THE SURFACE...THE DISTANCING INTO A 'ROLE' OF SAVANT-PERFECTION AS 'ENDURANCE' OF A 'STATE' OF 'PERFECT 'K...THE PERFECT 'K AS IN THE CHINESE SYMBOL OF 'FIRE'...

THE CHILD OF THE MARRY 'K' WAY OF THE ESSENCE OF THE CHINESE CHARACTER OF FIRE...FOR THE WILL TO GIVE BIRTH IN BECOMING HOPE OUT OF ASHES... A DRIVE OF A VULNERABLE '6TH' SENSING ECHOING INTO THE MARRY 'K' IN THE 'END LETTER' OF THE MAGICK OF 'PAT TRICK' IN A SAINT CHASE[CHASTE' VIRGINAL] SACRED BELIEF PURITY OF WHO CAN GET THE KINWEBBED 'SNAKES OUT OF 'IRE' LAND...THE SAINT PATRICK OF ESCAPE FROM SLAVERY AND 'A' 'L' CO-HAUL ISMS AND 'FIREWATERS OF FORGETTINGS...A REALISM OF HONESTY TO GUIDE 'THE DEEP SEATED' REARING 'TROUBLES' INTO REDEMPTION...

IT IS THE MOTHER MIRROR DRAMA...THE CONTROL OF OUTCOMES IN THE EROS TRAGEDIES OF DIONYSIAN BLINDNESS...THE WINE AND VINE IN CRAZE AND CRAVE...THE CUINGS OF THE SOUNDS OF INERTIA AND ONE AT A TIME AWAKENINGS...THE MOTHER MIRROR OF GENERATING A PATH BEYOND 'SUGGESTION TRANCEROS' AND DREAM REVERIES...

IT IS IN HER UNCONSCIOUSNESS 'FOSTERING' AS THE GODDESS OF ACOUSTICAL RESONANCE 'SENSAMORA' DEMANDING THE AGGRESSIONS OF PENETRATIONS OF THE 'MAD THUD IN THE MESS THIS' YET THWARTING AND PACIFYING THE VERY THING ONE NEEDS AND WANTS...

IT IS THE POWERLESSNESS IN NOT GOOD ENOUGH THAT RESULTS IN 'SUCCESSFUL ORGASM' MAY NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED AS THE IMAGE MAKING TO BUTTRESS THE FORTRESSED SELF' OF MEDIATION REQUIRES THAT 'HIS IRE' BECOME GREATER THAN 'HER ANGER'...

IT IS THE INNER TURMOIL OF 'CONTROL' IN MEDIATION INERTIA THAT FUELS THE WALLINGS OF DENIAL OF HER OWN RIGHT TO THRIVE. IT IS THE PRISON OF THE PSYCHE THAT KEEPS HER WHERE THE NEEDS AND DEMANDS OF OTHERS BECOME HER SERVITUDE TO THE 'VERSION OF SELF' SHE IS ABLE TO 'LIVE WITH'...

IT IS 'MOTHER MIRROR' NOT AS THE 'BEAUTY PRINCESS TRAPPED IN THE CASTLE OF THE EVIL QUEEN' BUT 'MOTHER MIRROR' AS FORTRESSING AGAINST THE 'HEAVY PRESSURES OF MAINTAINING THE 'MYTHS' OF HERITAGE...THE PRICE OF THE LOSS OF SOUL IN NOT SURRENDERING TO THE REAL FEELINGS OF WHAT SEEKS TO EMERGE...THE INABILITY TO SURRENDER TO HER REAL NEEDS...

THE TRAGEDY OF THE 'UNLIVED' MOVES ACROSS THE TEASE AND TEMPTATION TIMES...THE GLIMPSE OF A MOTHER MIRROR MOMENT OF A DREAM PERMEATES IN ECHOIC DEATH TONES OF 'TAKING LIFE IN LIVING LIFE'...FOR THE INNER HUNGERS AND NEGLECT COMPRESSIONS SQUEEZE THE VITALITY OF ONE'S REAL LIFE WITHIN AS WOMB BATTLES... IT IS AVAILABLE AND UNAVAILABLE AS THE FOETUS DEFINES IN AN IMPOSITION FROM WITHIN...

I SEE IN THE MOTHER MIRROR THE REACTIVITY AGAINST EARLY HARM IN HER INTERIORITY DISTANCING 'WHERE' NO ONE COULD 'GET TO HER'. THE DEEP 'INNER CHILD' OF NOT FEELING LOVED ENOUGH...

YET, THIS 'INNER CHILD' AS A 'WOMAN-CHILD' WITH A 'WOUNDED WOMB' COULD NOT EASILY FIND A 'PATH' OF 'LABOR' TO CRAWL OUT OF HER OWN 'SPACE'-WOMB...

FOR MEDIATION WAS FORCED ON HER AND HEART WAS NOT THE MEANS TO OBTAIN SUSTENANCE...THE TYRANNY OF BEING SENT TO A 'ROOM'...'ANOTHER PLACE' WAS 'NOT OF HER OWN CHOICE'...FOR SHE DID NOT UNDERSTAND THAT SHE WAS 'WOUNDED' IN CROSSCURRENTS AND WAYS THAT WERE FAR BEYOND THE COMPREHENSION OF HER SOUL.

SO HER JOURNEY OF REDEMPTION LED HER THROUGH MANY MEANS OF 'KNOWING' WHAT WAS 'ESSENTIAL' UNTIL SHE BECAME STRONG ENOUGH TO ESCAPE FROM ENSLAVEMENT'... SOMEHOW SHE HAD TO GENERATE THE THE INTENSITY-DENSITY' PRESSURES 'AKIN' TO HER 'ORIGINS' TO MOVE 'IN A DISTANCING' FROM 'ORIGINS' TO OWN HER OWN SOUL...FOR REAL DESIRE IS DISTANCE FROM ORIGINS AND AS LONG AS ONE IS ENMESHED IN THE 'DA-MA' DRAMAS ONE IS NOT IN TRUTH OF URGENCY...

THE MOTHER MIRROR IS A VISUAL ECHO EMBRACING A 'BRAVE HEART' TEMPERING OF 'TRUTH OF URGENCY' AND A 'YIN NESTING' QUEST FOR ACCEPTANCE AND LOVE...A RESTORATION OF 'PURITY' AS A RHYTHM TO OWN AN INNER UNTARNISHED SACRED PLACE...IT IS FANTASY IN A REGRESSION THAT SEEKS TO DENY, FORGET AND ERASE...IT IS ONLY IN BREATHING THROUGH THE WOUND OR THE TREASURED LOSS THAT ONE ACTUALLY CLEANSES AND PURIFIES AND IS ABLE TO TRULY LIVE AND IF NECESSARY 'FORGIVE'...

THE MOTHER MIRROR CALLS FORTH THE 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH' SENSES IN THE SHAME CONSCIOUSNESS IN 'SORROWS' AND 'PAIN' OF LABORING RHYTHMS...THE SPLITTINGS WITHIN IN THE FIBROUS 'CONSTRUCTIONS OF COMPLIANCES'...THE CONFUSIONS AND CONFLICTS OF WHAT IS ABSENT FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST...FOR IMPOSITION AND DUTY SUFFOCATE THE REAL SENSES...FOR 'GOING ALONG' ALTERS THE BIRTHING PROCESS IN A 'POWER SEEKING' AND CONTROL THAT MAKES UP OR 'COMPENSATES' FOR THE KNOWING OF 'SOMETHING' THAT IS 'NOT RIGHT'...

THE MOTHER MIRROR DISPLAYS HER SOUL IN EYES OF HEART VULNERABILITY...IT IS HOW FAR ONE MUST GO TO ENCOUNTER THE 'INNER CHILD' HIDING IN THE DEPTHS...THE ZONE OF VIGILANCE AND POWER SEEKING TO COUNTER FEELINGS OF 'INCOMPLETENESS' AND 'LACK OF SUSTENANCE'...IT IS THE 'PIVOT' PLACE IN THE FIRE OF THE 'K WHERE ONE MUST COME FORTH AND FACE THE PRESENT. IT IS THE FIRE 'K' IN THE 'BAY BE' SILENCES OF MEDITATE[ THE 'ME' OF 'DI' OF 'IT' OF 'TATE' ] ECHOING IN CONTROL ORDER SANITY OF KATE ['K' 8-EIGHT] AND LEMNISCATE INFINITY SURVIVAL TUNINGS OF 'COOL FIRE' PSYCHE THUNDER...IT IS 'SUGAR CUBE' OF 'TATE' AS SWEET OVERCOMING THE 'BITTER' SENSES OF LOSS. IT IS THE MEANS OF SUSTAINING A 'VERSION OF AVERSION'...AN IDEA OF SELF AS 'DISCIPLINED' IN AN IMAGE OF 'MEDIATION'...

IT IS THE 'COUNTER-RING' OF THE DEEP DAUGHTER AND THE MIRROR MOTHER OF 8 INTERSECTION...FOR ENCOUNTERING THE MOTHER MIRROR IS 'BEING IN THE REFLECTIONS' OF THE DEEP FEMININE...THE YIN HARVESTING AWARENESS OF INFLUENCES AND IMPOSITIONS OF MATERNAL EXPECTANCY...IT IS THE CHILD WITHIN LEARNING TO GET ASSISTANCE FROM DA OR MA IN ORDER TO OVERCOME MA OR DA...IT IS POWER GREATER THAN LOVE IN CONFLICT WITH LOVE OVERCOMING POWER. IT IS THE SIMULTANEITY OF SHIFTS OF CONTROL MEDIATION WHILE MOVING IN VULNERABILITY TO BE 'AS IS' REAL...

IT IS A NEVER ENDING PROCESS UNLESS ONE DECLARES A VICTORY IN ELECTRA OR OEDIPUS FOR SELF LOVE IS THE ONLY WAY TO LOVE OTHER...IT IS AS ONE LETS GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONE AND ENCOUNTERS THE OTHER IN REALNESS...IT IS THE OVERTHROW OF THE 'AUTO-EROTIC' AND THE DEATH OF THE 'NEUROTIC-EROTIC' IN THE MOTHER MIRROR THAT REFLECTIONS OF WHAT HAS BEEN...

IT IS 'AS IS'...BEING IN WILL TO KNOW BEYOND POWER CONTROL OF 'MEDIATIONS'...IT IS COURAGE TO CREATE AS THE 'ORIGINALITY' COMING OUT OF THE SHADOWS...IT IS ASSERTION...THIS IS ME AND 'YOUR JUDGEMENTS AND CRITICISMS ARE NOT CONSUMED'...IT IS BUILDING A REALISM SHIELD TO ASSERT THE VISIONS OF ONE'S TRUTH...

12.11.09 [C] W.P.C.