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INTRODUCTION...SEE LAST BLOG FOR COMPLETE NARRATIVE...GOING INTO THE CANYON POETIC ESSAY

EROS SNOW MELT IN DREAMS ECHO DEEPLY 7 MINUTE VIDEO......... 

THE WALLING OF ENCOUNTERS...

THE 'HAWK' RUSHED INTO MY EYES AS AN 'ICY LAKE WIND' BECAME TEARS...THE MOISTURES OF DIFFERENCES. A FROZEN TEARDROP FORMED ON MY GLASS LENS. I WAS IN A 'STATE OF CHANGE'. IT WAS A MOMENT OF HEAT LOSS AS 'LIFE FIRE' RELEASED INTO THE AIR.

I WAS TRAVELLING IN 'AGO'...THE PLACE BY THE LAKE...

'AGO' IS CONSCIOUSNESS IN COMPRESSIONS OF 'INNER NECESSITY'...STATES OF BEING...STATES OF AWARENESS...AWARENESS OF WHAT SEEKS 'TO SURFACE' IN TIME, WAY, SHELTER AND EXPRESSION FOR THE ELEMENTS OF NATURE DEMAND HUMAN FUELS OF EXCHANGE. THE 'TOO MUCH' AND THE 'NOT ENOUGH' ADAPTATIONS THAT BECOME AS ERIC HOFFER WROTE 'EVERY ADJUSTMENT IS A CRISIS IN SELF ESTEEM'.

AWARENESS OF 'AGO' IS THE BEGINNING OF HOW ONE FACES THE SELF 'STEAM' OF ELEMENTS OF BIO-CHEMISTRY AND 'HOMEOSTASIS GROUNDING'. FOR 'AGO'...A TERRAIN OF 'ALL' SEASONINGS AND MOISTURES OF 'A' AND 'GO'...A PLACE OF INNER FOUNTAINS AND WELLS OF VITALITY AND SUPPRESSION IS SENSED IN THE SEASONS FROM 'OUGHT UM' TO 'MAY'. THE 'SCOW' OF 'SHOULD-COULD-OUGHT-WOULD' AS 'AGO' PSYCHE' HOMEOSTASIS BALANCING INTERIORITY IN 'DRYNESS' AND 'DEGREES OF MOISTURE' IN ADAPTATIONS TO 'LAKE-EFFECTS', DESERTS AND EMOTIONALITY-STORMS'...

'AGO' IS 'IMAGE TRANSFERRENCE' AND THE 'RULE OF EXTERNALS' IN A PROJECTIONISM OF 'SOCIO-ECONOMIC-CULTURAL ABSORPTION' IN A PERVASIVENESS OF 'BUY THIS AND BECOME THIS'. 'AGO' IS THE ELECTRONIC STREAMINGS IN MIMESIS OR 'IMITATION-SUGGESTION' THAT IS SOMETIMES 'JUST-RIGHT', YET MOST OF THE TIME IT IS 'TOO HOT' OR 'TOO COLD'. 'AGO' IS A PSYCHE PLACE WHERE 'IT IS ALWAYS 'SUM-THING' AND AN EMOTIONAL DESERT TERRAIN WHERE ONE MUST FACE THE WINDS OF 'SUMMER' AS 'SUM'-'TIME'.

'AGO' IS A CLIMATE OF 'WHETHERS' AS 'SPRINGTIME' IN DIONYSIAN FERTILITY 'AROUSALS AND AWAKENINGS' AND 'WINTER' IN 'GRAY CLOUDS OF DEPRESSIONS AND WITHDRAWALS'. IT IS 'ALL' IN THE SHIFTING FREQUENCIES OF 'STORMS' AND 'BLUE SKIES'.

'AGO' IS THE INNER CLIMATE OF DESERTS AND STORMS WHERE CREATIVE 'BRAINSTORMS' OF BECOMING DIFFER FROM 'THE STORMS OF THE BRAIN' OF THE 'ILLNESSES' OF DENIALS AND FORTRESSINGS.

'AGO' IS THE ONGOING EMOTIONALITY OF THE SENSE OF SELF WITHIN THE PULSINGS AND STREAMINGS OF THE 'MANY'. IT IS CONSCIOUSNESS OF THE SHIFTINGS OF STATES OF AWARENESS AS 'WHAT IS IT TO BE IN CONTROL' OR IN CHARGE OF A 'STATE'. WHAT IS 'SAFENESS' YET FREEDOM TO GROW IN 'NEEDS SEEKING REALIZATION'.

WHAT MUST BE CONTROLLED IN 'IMMEDIATE OR INSTANT GRATIFICATION' AS 'AGO' IS THE 'ELECTRONIC HERD OF GLOBALIZATION SPEED' AS 'WHAT IS THERE IS REPLACED' AND AS ANDY GROVE OF INTEL SAID 'ONLY THE PARANOID SURVIVE'
'AGO' IS 'HOLDING' TO 'SAFE AND SOUND' FAMILIARITY IN THE CUSTOMS AND MYTHS OF 'WHEN IN ROME, DO AS THE ROMANS'. 'AGO' IS THE CREATIVE EDGE OF CUINGS OF 'STATE'...THE 'WAY' OF 'WORDS', TIME AND LOCATION. THE 'WAY' OF 'GROUNDINGS' AND CENTERING OF COMMUNITY ENERGIES AND INDIVIDUAL 'PERSONALITY'.

'AGO' IS THE FORMULA OF MASS 'SOUND' IN ENERGY DIRECTION. IT IS COLLECTIVE UNCONSCIOUS IN 'ELECTRONIC HERDING' REACTIVITY TO 'MASS-OCCUR' MOMENTS. IT IS 'THE CONSTANCY OF 'HOT AIR'' OF SEXOMONEY MEDIA ADVERTISING OF 'EROSTOCRACY' SUGGESTIONS OF 'CRAVE AND CRAZE' IN DEEP PENETRATIONS OF PSYCHE. THE SENSINGS OF MACHIAVELLI AS 'CLIZIA' VIBRATIONS 'FOR THE CLOSER A MAN IS TO HIS DESIRE THE MORE HE DESIRES IT AND SINCE HE CANNOT HAVE IT IT CAUSES HIM GREATER TORMENT'...

'AGO' IS A CLIMATE OF FORCE OF 'ENERGY' THAT DRIVES 'MANY' INTO 'DEEP-SEATED' NESTS OF 'HOLDING' AND STORAGE WHERE SENSES OF 'WISHFULNESS' ARE COMPELLED TO SEEK SOLUTIONS IN CHAMELEON-LIKE EMULATIONS AND IMITATIONS...STRATEGIES OF POWER SEEKING IN LEVERAGE AND FORTRESS BUFFERINGS OF DISTANCINGS.

'AGO' IS A RIVER OF ELECTRONIC IMAGERY AND RESONANCE...
'AGO'...THE DEEP AWARENESS OF THE CONSTANCY OF 'WHAT IS THE 'POINT' AND THE ECHOES OF 'DREAMS' THAT ECHO DEEPLY. 'AGO' AS HEART IN THE MIDST OF 'HARM' WHERE STRIVINGS, DECEPTIONS AND LEVERAGINGS OF 'MIMESIS' MODES OF 'FIGHT AND FLIGHT' IN EMULATION 'IMAGE MAKING' ARE THE NORM. 'AGO' AS 'MASS' IS IN THE LOSSES OF HEALTHY PHYSIOLOGY, MISSING MUSCLES AND VITAL SEXUALITY. 'AGO' IS COMPRESSION IN ADAPTATION OR COMPLIANCE IN 'IMPOSITION MEDIATION'. 'AGO IS SEEN IN REACTIVITY AND WILFULLNESS OF ANGER AND FRUSTRATION AND SENSES OF FEELING 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH'.

'AGO' IS IN THE 'FENN AFFECT' OF THE 'MUSCLES GETTING THE LEAST AMOUNT OF WORK' AS ACCUMULATIONS AND STORAGE DRAIN VITALITY FROM WHERE IT IS MOST NEEDED. IT IS 'AGO' IN SURRENDERING PRESENCE TO 'EXPECTANCY' AND 'IMPOSITION ORDERING' AS FORTRESSINGS OF 'FIGHT-FLIGHT ADRENALINES BECOME 'TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING'.

'AGO' IS 'MASS-OCCUR' DYNAMISM AND PSYCHE SECURITY IN 'MARKET SHARE' OR 'MARK-IT' IDENTITY. 'AGO' IS SPEED OF THE ONGOING 'MOMENTUM' OF 'BUILDING PYRAMIDS'. IT IS THE CONSTANCY OF A SOCIAL DARWINIAN 'ONE OUT OF MANY' AND 'SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST' WAY. 'AGO' IS IMBALANCE IN ADAPTATION AND ENDURANCE THAT 'DRAINS RESOLVE'. 'AGO' IS COPING IN ANAESTHETIZING WAYS THAT CONSTRICTS BREATHING AND GROWTH.



'AGO' IS TOO MUCH 'CONTROL' AS ONE LACKS ENCOUNTER, SPONTANEITY AND A WILL OF CONNECTION AND TOO LITTLE 'CONTROL' AS ONE NEVER DEVELOPS A PURPOSEFUL SENSE OF BEING AND MISSES THE OPPORTUNITIES OF SELF 'GENERATIVENESS'. 'AGO' IS SURFACE, IMAGE, SHALLOW AND PHOTO-OP OF 'IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT'.

ONE MUST LET GO TO TRANSFORM...ONE MUST FACE THE LIMITS OF PERSONALITY AND THE PATTERNS OF BEHAVIOR TO SHED EXCESSES IN ACCUMULATIONS AND FORTRESSINGS. IT IS INNER STRENGTH IN FIBROUSNESS IN A LONELY JOURNEY OF DISTILLING ESENCES AND CULLING ORIGINALITY OUT OF THE SHADOWS.

IT IS 'IN WORDS THAT REGULATE' THE BALANCES OF MOISTURE, BREATH AND EXPRESSION...THE 'DAATH' PASSAGE IN THE THROAT OF MEDIATIONS OF DREAMS AND 'INNER NECESSITY'...THAT ONE FINDS TRUE PRESENCE.

GOING INTO THE CANYON’

BLUING AND PURPLE STIRRUPS OF ‘SHUDDERING’


LEAVINGS AND STRINGING ON A ‘CLOSE’ LINE OF BEING


A ‘BETWIXT AND BETWEEN’ SPACE OF DREAMS AND GATHERINGS


ALADDIN ASKING FOR THE SUGGESTIONS AND DREAMS


CULLING THE POINT OF SEMEN AND BEAUTY


RARE AIR RHYTHMS OF SYNERGY AND CONVULSIVE URGENCY


THE WILL SEEKING THROUGH A DEEP HUNT OF RESONANCE


IN THE ALCHEMY OF THE REAL OF A LONG NECKED QUEEN


A NEFERTITI PRESENCE ALONG MIDNIGHT MIRACLES


AS AN IMMACULATE CONCEPTION OF THE SPIRIT


THE GHOSTS DRIVE US TO THE INTIMATE CLIFFS


WRESTLING WITH MEMORY AND ‘PUISSANCE’


DISCOVERING A HOPE IN THE DARKNESS OF WOUNDEDNESS


WHERE ‘SCRAMBLED EGGS’ AND ‘SALT AND PEPPER’ ARE


THE SOUNDS OF ‘AUTO SCREAMS’ OF HORSEPOWER ON A BRIDLE PATH


THE ODYSSEY OF THE POETIC AND THE EPIC SEEK SAFETY


EVEN AS ONE FIGHTS THE DRAGONS OF ENVY AND THE MISSING


IT IS THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE SWELLINGS AND SHORINGS


THE SANDING AND POLISHING OF AN EVOLVING NEED


ASKING… IN A WAY … WHAT TRULY MATTERS


HEART FEARS AND LOST LUNGS BECOME SMOKING DREAMS


FOR NUMBING SENSES TO MAKE IT IN TODAY…EACH DAY…


A MEANS TO AN END…A MEANS TO GET THROUGH…THE PAINS…


THE HARSH INNER ECHOES OF TOO MANY YESTERDAYS


OF COLLAPSED AND COMPRESSED NECESSITIES…


A JOURNEY OF RANGES AND SWINGS OF DRY AND LUSHNESS


PEACEFUL SHARING OF TRANCE BLOOMS AND COMPASS SENSES


THE THEATER OF THE ‘MINED’ AND THE MINDLESS … RUSHES


OF SURGING WATERS FROM GREEN PLACES IN THE HEART…


A STILLNESS TIME…ROOTING AND GRASPING FOR LEVERAGING


GETTING TO ‘IT’…IS HALF THE BATTLE…SO YOU KNOW WHY


THE EPICENTER THRIVES ON A DYNAMISM OF FLAWS AND NICHES


AS SPIRITS STRAINED IN CONSTANCY OF ORBITS DISCOVER


STATES OF SEEMING ‘OPPOSITIONAL COMPLETION’…MOMENTS OF
‘PERFECTION’ …BEING THERE AND HERE AT THE SAME TIME…




FORESIGHTEDNESS AND SENSITIVITY IN A FIBROUS ‘ELASTICITY’


CELL GROWTH THROUGH HANDSOME STATES OF ENCOUNTER


ENVISIONING IN WINDS OF GUTS AND SWIRLS OF AWE GUSTS


GROUNDING CREATIVE FIRE IN FOSTERING A NUCLEAR KINETIC


AS A FIERY ALCHEMY TOUCHING THE HEART OF LONELINESS


A HEART OF DARKNESS JOURNEY INTO THE PLANES OF MADNESS


WHERE MEANS OF CLASHES AND NECESSITIES ARE TRULY


SURVIVAL PAIRINGS IN TEMPOS OF WISE WINGS FLYING


ACROSS GOLDEN SUNSETS AND MEMORY POOLS


THERE IN THE SPIDER’S WEBBING IS A GIFT OF GRACEFULNESS…


‘GOING INTO THE CANYON’ IS BEING IN THE GAP OF THE MAUVE WHERE


A SPIRIT WAVE OF VENUS DRIVES A REALIZATION INTO AN INTERSECTION


DESPERATELY GRASPING YET TRAPPED IN WEBS OF HABITS AND NEEDS…


BLIND TO THE RELEASE POTENCY OF MOVING THROUGH FEARS AND TEARS


TO LET GO OF THE DRAMAS AND MEMORIES OF ‘ENTANGLED PUPPETS’


THE SKY GIRL FASCINATES IN THE DYING LIGHT OF THE DAY


A KALEIDOSCOPE CURTAIN OF BILLIONS AND BILLIONS OF SPARKLES


A TIME FOR RIDING ACROSS PEAKS OF CLIFFS EDGES


WHERE CLIMBING BEYOND CANYON FLOORS IS AN INTENSITY


THAT IS…DESIRE…


A VOLCANIC FURY OF A YONI ON FIRE




THERE IS AN ‘ALL OUT’ COURAGE RUNNING IN THE STEAMY BREEZES…


A PRECIOUSNESS OF BECOMING PRESENCE BEYOND THE ‘WHAT WAS BEFORE’


AN UPHEAVAL OF SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION OF CONNECTEDNESS


BEING IN A STATE OF SAFETY YET THRIVING IN THE RISKS OF SURFACING…


GLIDING CONFIDENTLY PAST THE LIONS IN THE SHADOWS


RUNNING…RUNNING…RUNNING…AN OVERCOMING OF DESPAIR AND DENIALS


DEMANDING RIGHTS TO FULLNESS OF DIGNITY AND JUSTICE


MORE REAL THAN MERE ‘MANAGE THE DAMAGE’ FORTRESSING OF SHAME


THERE IS A RISING…A ‘SWELLING SOUL’ OF SYNERGISTIC DIGESTION …


CLAIMING A BREATHING ‘ROOM OF ONE’S OWN’…


HEART FIRE WINDS OF SAUNA HEAT CALLING FORTH SENSUAL AWAKENINGS


SHE MOVES THROUGH HER MATERNAL VANITY INTO A DEFINING OF ‘ME’


GENTLY TENDING THE GRAPE AND THE WINE INTO ITS’ NATURAL TIME


TUNING AND BASKING IN THE GOLDEN SHAFTS OF FILTERED LIGHT


RAINING INTO THE ‘HUNGERS’ OF ‘THE BIG SUCK’…


BAKES AND CAKES ARE INGREDIENTS OF A COYOTE CALLING


THE DEEP WINDS OF ALTERED PERCEPTIONS OF THE EMOTIONAL DESERT


SEEMING TO OFFER A GUIDANCE TO THOSE ‘IN TRANSIT’ AND FLIGHT


AN ONGOING MILKING OF HOPE WHILE RIDING ON STORMS OF ‘CHI’


PASSING THROUGH A PEASANT’S HOME IN THE LAND OF THE CACTUS.


WPC [C]2010 REVISED

MOTHER MIRROR...THE IMMERSIVENESS OF EXPERIENCE

'AS FLIES TO WANTON BOYS ARE WE TO THE GODS...

THEY KILL US FOR THEIR SPORT'   SHAKESPEARE-KING LEAR

AVATAR MEDIUM SAVANT SURROGATE STATES OF ENERGY FLOWS...MERIDIAN POINTS OF LIGHT ELECTRICAL STREAMS IN ACOUSTICAL RESONANCE...VIBRATORY ECHOIC TIMBRE AS 'UNHEARD' YET SENSED OR FELT...

CONSCIOUSNESS IN EROS ACTIVATIONS OF ALIVENESS IN PATTERNINGS OR OPPORTUNITY OF REDIRECTIONS...

TENDENCIES IN WAYS INTO PERFORMANCE OR GROWTH...

IT IS THE COLLISIONISM AFFECTS OF SUSTAINING THE IMAGERY OF 'TIDY' REALITY IN THE STORMS OF COLLECTIVE ANGST AND DELUSIONS OF DESIRE...IT IS THE MEDIATION OF THE MATERNAL IN THE SPIRIT OF SELF STRIVING TO PROVE AND ESTABLISH A POWER PRESENCE TO COUNTER THE EMPTINESS...IT IS THE COMPRESSION FORTRESSING OF SAVANTING INTO AVATAR OR MEDIUM OR PATTERN ROLE THAT ANAESTHETIZES AGAINST THE SURFACINGS OF REAL FEELINGS...THE CORRIDORING, CHANNELLINGS OF IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT...IT IS A STORM IN THE BRAIN DIFFERENT FROM A CREATIVITY BRAINSTORM OF VISION AND FOCUS...

 MOISTURES OF DIFFERENCES IS PROCESS OF PSYCHE ALCHEMY IN BIO-CHEMISTRY...

TRANCEROS AWARENESS AMIDST DRIVINGS INTO 'SHAMAN' INITIATIONS RECURRENCE AS THE ORIGINAL VULNERABILITIES AND SENSES OF POWERLESSNESS AND BEING OVERWHELMED ARE REACTIVATED...AS ONE LACKS RESOURCES AND STRENGTH TO WITHSTAND THE SENSORY OVERLOADS AND THE 'DEATH' OF THE EGO PERSONALITY...


THE JOURNEY OF GROWINGNESS BECOMES THE GREATLY ENHANCED NEW WAY OF DISCIPLINE TO CONCENTRATE IN PURPOSEFUL ACTIONS OF INTEGRITY BY BEING ABLE TO REDUCE INFLUENCES OF WHAT IS ALL AROUND...


IT IS FOCUSING AS 'SAVANT' TENDENCY IN ACTIONS YET BEING CONSCIOUS OF 'AS IS' PRESENCE...

IT IS KNOWING THAT EVERYTHING OR 'EVERY THING' IS A NARRATIVE, ESPECIALLY IN THE NEON EMOTIONAL DESERT OF CREATIVE PERFORMERS IN 'COOL FIRE' ACOUSTICAL BLINDNESS' INTO SAVANT OR MEDIUM OR AVATAR PATHINGS IN MERIDIAN POINTS OF LIGHT ENERGY 'CIRCUITS' [OF CIRCUS SIR CUSS SINGS]...THE MUZAK OF THE DRAMAS OF NO ONE IS LOVED ENOUGH IN A SPLITTING REALM OF HYPERSEXUALIZED PERFORMERS OF REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE WAYS FUNCTIONING IN ENDURANCES OF 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' MEDIATION THEATERS...

IT IS SEEING INTO THE ARENA OF TALENTS, PERFORMERS, SKILLS OF CELEBRITY AND ACTOR, ATHLETE AND TALKING SMITHS...THE EXCESSES OF 'TOO MUCH' BEING CHANNELLED INTO TO NARROW OF A PATTERN...

IT IS SAVANT ZONING AS 'TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING' BECOMES 'ROBBING PETER TO PAY PAUL' AND LOSS OF ORGANIC FUNCTION IN THE IMBALANCES OF LEVERAGINGS INSTEAD OF TRUTH OF URGENCY AND INNER NECESSITY...

MOTHER MIRROR

A MOMENT OF PSYCHE BIOGRAPHY ENCOUNTER...

'A FLASH OF INSIGHT IN A REFLECTION...THE FACE OF MY MOTHER IN AN OPPOSITE...A PARALLELISM YET AN ENERGY OF ATTRACTION AS BROWS, CHIN, LIPS, EYES, NOSE , DISPLAY SOMETHING UNIMAGINED...SOMETHING OF A WOMAN OF COMPLEX PSYCHE STATES ENMESHED IN BELIEFS AND TENETS OF INERTIA'...

AWARENESS....TRANSITION...

A MOMENT OF AFFECT AS 'SHE' LEFT 'WITHIN ME' AND TEMPORARILY 'FORMED' IN A ZONE 'ACROSS' FROM ME...IT OCCURRED IN A PSYCHE RELEASE...A VISUAL ECHO RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES...SHE WAS IN MY PRESENCE NOT AS A 'PROJECTION' BUT AN 'ENERGY INTERSECTION'...I COULD SEE HER ANGST IN A 'CERTAINTY OF BELIEF' IN A 'FAITH MEDIATION' OF 'TREASURED LOSS'...THE WOUNDS AND RAGES OF HAVING BEEN 'WRONGED'...SOMETHING IN MY VISION ALTERED AS I SAW MY MOTHER IN A MOTHER MIRROR.






IT WAS IN A GUILTINESS MOMENT THAT WAS 'OUT OF BALANCE'... A STREAMING IN 'EMOTIONALITY TIMBRE' OF THE 'LOST CHILD' THAT DID NOT SURVIVE BEYOND A BRIEF BREATH OF SPRING...THE 'CHILD' THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN...THE 'CHILD' OF 'SHOCK' THAT DID NOT SURVIVE...THE CHILD THAT NEVER REALIZED HUMAN...THE 'CHILD' THAT BECAME AN 'INVISIBLE FORCE' THAT 'NO ONE' COULD BIRTH OUT OF THE 'NOTHINGNESS'...THE 'INVISIBLE CHILD' FILLING THE ABSENCE...THE EMPTINESS...THE INVISIBLE CHILD OF BURDEN...THE INVISIBLE FORCE IN 'OWNERSHIP' OF HER INNER RIVER OF SORROW...FOR NO ONE COULD SHARE THE SORROW OF THIS 'LOSS'...

THE SEEING INTO THE 'MOTHER MIRROR'...SEEING THE AFFECTS OF THE DEPTHS OF 'POWERLESSNESS' TO COUNTER THE 'SHAME' AND 'GUILT' OF 'NOT BEING WORTH IT' OR 'NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH'...FOR SHE SEEMED 'HEART DISHEARTENED' IN HAVING DONE EVERYTHING IN ACCORD WITH EXPECTANCY AND STILL THE DARKNESS AND DEADNESS OF HER DEPTHS DEFINED...






THE COMPENSATORY JOURNEY...THE READJUSTMENTS AND RECRYSTALLIZATIONS TO COUNTER THE EXPECTANCY OF NOT GOOD ENOUGH AND IMPERFECT STATES...A SEEKING OUT OF 'WINNING A PRIZE' WITHOUT REALIZING THAT THE GAME WAS DIFFERENT FROM WHAT SHE HAD ORGANIZED HERSELF FOR...






IT WAS A BETRAYAL OF SELF AS THE SHOCK DROVE HER TO FLIGHT IN THE VANISHING AWAY FROM ALL THAT HAD BEEN CONSTRUCTED...A PHOENIX BIRD RISING OUT OF THE ASHES DRAMA-HOPE THAT A RECONSTITUTION WOULD FACILITATE A COURSE BEYOND THE OLD ORDERING RUNNING ITS COURSE.






FOR THE 'LOST CHILD' THAT IS HER CREATIVE WITHDRAWAL FROM THE SURFACE...THE DISTANCING INTO A 'ROLE' OF SAVANT-PERFECTION AS 'ENDURANCE' OF A 'STATE' OF 'PERFECT 'K...THE PERFECT 'K AS IN THE CHINESE SYMBOL OF 'FIRE'...






THE CHILD OF THE MARRY 'K' WAY OF THE ESSENCE OF THE CHINESE CHARACTER OF FIRE...FOR THE WILL TO GIVE BIRTH IN BECOMING HOPE OUT OF ASHES... A DRIVE OF A VULNERABLE '6TH' SENSING ECHOING INTO THE MARRY 'K' IN THE 'END LETTER' OF THE MAGICK OF 'PAT TRICK' IN A SAINT CHASE[CHASTE' VIRGINAL] SACRED BELIEF PURITY OF WHO CAN GET THE KINWEBBED 'SNAKES OUT OF 'IRE' LAND...THE SAINT PATRICK OF ESCAPE FROM SLAVERY AND 'A' 'L' CO-HAUL ISMS AND 'FIREWATERS OF FORGETTINGS...A REALISM OF HONESTY TO GUIDE 'THE DEEP SEATED' REARING 'TROUBLES' INTO REDEMPTION...






IT IS THE MOTHER MIRROR DRAMA...THE CONTROL OF OUTCOMES IN THE EROS TRAGEDIES OF DIONYSIAN BLINDNESS...THE WINE AND VINE IN CRAZE AND CRAVE...THE CUINGS OF THE SOUNDS OF INERTIA AND ONE AT A TIME AWAKENINGS...THE MOTHER MIRROR OF GENERATING A PATH BEYOND 'SUGGESTION TRANCEROS' AND DREAM REVERIES...






IT IS IN HER UNCONSCIOUSNESS 'FOSTERING' AS THE GODDESS OF ACOUSTICAL RESONANCE 'SENSAMORA' DEMANDING THE AGGRESSIONS OF PENETRATIONS OF THE 'MAD THUD IN THE MESS THIS' YET THWARTING AND PACIFYING THE VERY THING ONE NEEDS AND WANTS...






IT IS THE POWERLESSNESS IN NOT GOOD ENOUGH THAT RESULTS IN 'SUCCESSFUL ORGASM' MAY NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED AS THE IMAGE MAKING TO BUTTRESS THE FORTRESSED SELF' OF MEDIATION REQUIRES THAT 'HIS IRE' BECOME GREATER THAN 'HER ANGER'...






IT IS THE INNER TURMOIL OF 'CONTROL' IN MEDIATION INERTIA THAT FUELS THE WALLINGS OF DENIAL OF HER OWN RIGHT TO THRIVE. IT IS THE PRISON OF THE PSYCHE THAT KEEPS HER WHERE THE NEEDS AND DEMANDS OF OTHERS BECOME HER SERVITUDE TO THE 'VERSION OF SELF' SHE IS ABLE TO 'LIVE WITH'...

IT IS 'MOTHER MIRROR' NOT AS THE 'BEAUTY PRINCESS TRAPPED IN THE CASTLE OF THE EVIL QUEEN' BUT 'MOTHER MIRROR' AS FORTRESSING AGAINST THE 'HEAVY PRESSURES OF MAINTAINING THE 'MYTHS' OF HERITAGE...THE PRICE OF THE LOSS OF SOUL IN NOT SURRENDERING TO THE REAL FEELINGS OF WHAT SEEKS TO EMERGE...THE INABILITY TO SURRENDER TO HER REAL NEEDS...






THE TRAGEDY OF THE 'UNLIVED' MOVES ACROSS THE TEASE AND TEMPTATION TIMES...THE GLIMPSE OF A MOTHER MIRROR MOMENT OF A DREAM PERMEATES IN ECHOIC DEATH TONES OF 'TAKING LIFE IN LIVING LIFE'...FOR THE INNER HUNGERS AND NEGLECT COMPRESSIONS SQUEEZE THE VITALITY OF ONE'S REAL LIFE WITHIN AS WOMB BATTLES... IT IS AVAILABLE AND UNAVAILABLE AS THE FOETUS DEFINES IN AN IMPOSITION FROM WITHIN...






I SEE IN THE MOTHER MIRROR THE REACTIVITY AGAINST EARLY HARM IN HER INTERIORITY DISTANCING 'WHERE' NO ONE COULD 'GET TO HER'. THE DEEP 'INNER CHILD' OF NOT FEELING LOVED ENOUGH...






YET, THIS 'INNER CHILD' AS A 'WOMAN-CHILD' WITH A 'WOUNDED WOMB' COULD NOT EASILY FIND A 'PATH' OF 'LABOR' TO CRAWL OUT OF HER OWN 'SPACE'-WOMB...






FOR MEDIATION WAS FORCED ON HER AND HEART WAS NOT THE MEANS TO OBTAIN SUSTENANCE...THE TYRANNY OF BEING SENT TO A 'ROOM'...'ANOTHER PLACE' WAS 'NOT OF HER OWN CHOICE'...FOR SHE DID NOT UNDERSTAND THAT SHE WAS 'WOUNDED' IN CROSSCURRENTS AND WAYS THAT WERE FAR BEYOND THE COMPREHENSION OF HER SOUL.






SO HER JOURNEY OF REDEMPTION LED HER THROUGH MANY MEANS OF 'KNOWING' WHAT WAS 'ESSENTIAL' UNTIL SHE BECAME STRONG ENOUGH TO ESCAPE FROM ENSLAVEMENT'... SOMEHOW SHE HAD TO GENERATE THE THE INTENSITY-DENSITY' PRESSURES 'AKIN' TO HER 'ORIGINS' TO MOVE 'IN A DISTANCING' FROM 'ORIGINS' TO OWN HER OWN SOUL...FOR REAL DESIRE IS DISTANCE FROM ORIGINS AND AS LONG AS ONE IS ENMESHED IN THE 'DA-MA' DRAMAS ONE IS NOT IN TRUTH OF URGENCY...






THE MOTHER MIRROR IS A VISUAL ECHO EMBRACING A 'BRAVE HEART' TEMPERING OF 'TRUTH OF URGENCY' AND A 'YIN NESTING' QUEST FOR ACCEPTANCE AND LOVE...A RESTORATION OF 'PURITY' AS A RHYTHM TO OWN AN INNER UNTARNISHED SACRED PLACE...IT IS FANTASY IN A REGRESSION THAT SEEKS TO DENY, FORGET AND ERASE...IT IS ONLY IN BREATHING THROUGH THE WOUND OR THE TREASURED LOSS THAT ONE ACTUALLY CLEANSES AND PURIFIES AND IS ABLE TO TRULY LIVE AND IF NECESSARY 'FORGIVE'...






THE MOTHER MIRROR CALLS FORTH THE 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH' SENSES IN THE SHAME CONSCIOUSNESS IN 'SORROWS' AND 'PAIN' OF LABORING RHYTHMS...THE SPLITTINGS WITHIN IN THE FIBROUS 'CONSTRUCTIONS OF COMPLIANCES'...THE CONFUSIONS AND CONFLICTS OF WHAT IS ABSENT FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST...FOR IMPOSITION AND DUTY SUFFOCATE THE REAL SENSES...FOR 'GOING ALONG' ALTERS THE BIRTHING PROCESS IN A 'POWER SEEKING' AND CONTROL THAT MAKES UP OR 'COMPENSATES' FOR THE KNOWING OF 'SOMETHING' THAT IS 'NOT RIGHT'...

THE MOTHER MIRROR DISPLAYS HER SOUL IN EYES OF HEART VULNERABILITY...IT IS HOW FAR ONE MUST GO TO ENCOUNTER THE 'INNER CHILD' HIDING IN THE DEPTHS...THE ZONE OF VIGILANCE AND POWER SEEKING TO COUNTER FEELINGS OF 'INCOMPLETENESS' AND 'LACK OF SUSTENANCE'...IT IS THE 'PIVOT' PLACE IN THE FIRE OF THE 'K WHERE ONE MUST COME FORTH AND FACE THE PRESENT. IT IS THE FIRE 'K' IN THE 'BAY BE' SILENCES OF MEDITATE[ THE 'ME' OF 'DI' OF 'IT' OF 'TATE' ] ECHOING IN CONTROL ORDER SANITY OF KATE ['K' 8-EIGHT] AND LEMNISCATE INFINITY SURVIVAL TUNINGS OF 'COOL FIRE' PSYCHE THUNDER...IT IS 'SUGAR CUBE' OF 'TATE' AS SWEET OVERCOMING THE 'BITTER' SENSES OF LOSS. IT IS THE MEANS OF SUSTAINING A 'VERSION OF AVERSION'...AN IDEA OF SELF AS 'DISCIPLINED' IN AN IMAGE OF 'MEDIATION'...






IT IS THE 'COUNTER-RING' OF THE DEEP DAUGHTER AND THE MIRROR MOTHER OF 8 INTERSECTION...FOR ENCOUNTERING THE MOTHER MIRROR IS 'BEING IN THE REFLECTIONS' OF THE DEEP FEMININE...THE YIN HARVESTING AWARENESS OF INFLUENCES AND IMPOSITIONS OF MATERNAL EXPECTANCY...IT IS THE CHILD WITHIN LEARNING TO GET ASSISTANCE FROM DA OR MA IN ORDER TO OVERCOME MA OR DA...IT IS POWER GREATER THAN LOVE IN CONFLICT WITH LOVE OVERCOMING POWER. IT IS THE SIMULTANEITY OF SHIFTS OF CONTROL MEDIATION WHILE MOVING IN VULNERABILITY TO BE 'AS IS' REAL...






IT IS A NEVER ENDING PROCESS UNLESS ONE DECLARES A VICTORY IN ELECTRA OR OEDIPUS FOR SELF LOVE IS THE ONLY WAY TO LOVE OTHER...IT IS AS ONE LETS GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONE AND ENCOUNTERS THE OTHER IN REALNESS...IT IS THE OVERTHROW OF THE 'AUTO-EROTIC' AND THE DEATH OF THE 'NEUROTIC-EROTIC' IN THE MOTHER MIRROR THAT REFLECTIONS OF WHAT HAS BEEN...

IT IS 'AS IS'...BEING IN WILL TO KNOW BEYOND POWER CONTROL OF 'MEDIATIONS'...IT IS COURAGE TO CREATE AS THE 'ORIGINALITY' COMING OUT OF THE SHADOWS...IT IS ASSERTION...THIS IS ME AND 'YOUR JUDGEMENTS AND CRITICISMS ARE NOT CONSUMED'...IT IS BUILDING A REALISM SHIELD TO ASSERT THE VISIONS OF ONE'S TRUTH...






12.11.09 [C] W.P.C.

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LONELINESS IS THE WAY BY WHICH DESTINY ENDEAVORS TO LEAD MAN TO HIMSELF'- HERMANN HESSE

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